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Alhamdulillah..akhirnya setelah beberapa tahun bertungkus lumus akhirnya semalam aku berjaya menghabiskan peperiksaanku yang terakhir..Perasaan ku ketika ini..hmmm..terharu, tergugat, terkesima..rasa seolah2 dunia ni berhenti berputar buat seketika..betul ke aku akan meninggalkan zaman belajar?aku buntu..seboleh2nya aku ingin terus duduk di medan pelajaran..tp sampai bila? sampai ajal menjemput? Ya Allah, berikanku petunjuk..

Rasa takut sgt nak mengadap alam pekerjaan..Dalam kepala otak ni asyik memikirkan perkara2 yg negatif..boleh ke aku? Bakal berjayakah aku?trrrrr..ketar kepala lutut memikirkannya..apa2pun aku akan terus berusaha..resume dah pun diforwardkan..huh..penat aku..camnela aku nak lalui sesi interview nanti..secara jujurnya, aku mmg x pernah lulus interview..mana xnya bila mengadap jer muka org yg menginterview tu terus blur..hilang segala apa yang dah dibaca, diingat..camnerla aku nak buat nih..

Kata org, bila kita gemuruh kita cuba bayangkan sesuatu yg buruk kat peng”interview” tuh..macam bayangkan diorg pakai undergament jer ker..tp bila aku dlm bilik interview tuh, jgnkan nak bygkan diorg camtu nak ingat nama sendiri pun payah..mmg blank and berjaya mem’bodoh’kan diri sendiri..mcm budak kurang upaya yg mampu tenung muka diorg tuh..

ingat lagi masa pegi satu interview tuh..org lain adala smpi 30 minit kena interview..aku 5 minit pun x sampai..sepatah dia tanya..sepatah aku jawap.. semua yg ada kat situ cam terkejut gakla tgk aku keluar awal..kenapala aku teruk sgt..ha? ha? ha? :((

sbnrnya aku mmg x bleh hadapi satu2 keadaan yg besar..tula..mcm interview, presentation, uhhh ohhh..lagi satu masa amik lesen..kesnya masa tu aku dah berjaya meng’psycho’kan diri aku sendiri..”huuuuu..garangnya pemeriksa jpj, lupala plak jln a-g tu..”lebih kurg camtula..So bila time aku kena bwk pg kat jln besar, elok je nak kena keluar dari sekolah memandu tu, tetiba termati enjin.. automatic lepas tu rasa cam nak nangis..tetiba terdengar suara lembut kat sblh..dia ckp “xper, buat jer saya ni mcm pengajar awak..” fuhhh..lepas tu terus bleh bwk sbb biasanya pakcik yg ajar tu slalu tido, so aku bygkan jerla pemeriksa tu tido..hahahahah..

lagi satu masa jumpa mahathir lokman..aku ni mmg kagum tgk dia dari dulu lagi..mana xnya, diakan pandai ckp byk bahasa..pastu dia sgt terpelajar..One day masa aku pg seminar International Symposium on Science, Technology & Innovation yang diorganized oleh Ministry of Science, Technology & Innovation aku jumpala ngan dia..Dia jadi emcee utk seminar tu..Aku rasa masa nak pg kat dier tuh mmg aku over excited..Tp bila dpn dia aku jd kaku..bila dia tanya aku senyum jer..nasibla ada dauz, mawar ngan jimmy yg pandai berckp..huhuhuhu sedihnya..aku tau, masa tu mesti dlm hati dia ckp “manala dtg budak yang kurang bijak nih..”

haila..harap2 lepas ni aku xla kelam kabut lagi..aku harap dgn meningkatnya umur maka berkurangla kegemuruhan aku..and kepada sesiapa yg ada nasihat untuk menghilangkan gemuruh tu, please help me..I really appreciate it..

Recently, i have read in one of the magazines (which i found around the house) that to unburden you, you have to always think positive, never look back and write a memoir..Hmmm..Interesting..They said never look back and yet they want us to write a memoir..It doesn’t make sense..To write a memoir we have to remind us of what have happen..It just like writing a diary but with a lot of happy thought..Shheeessshhh..Not going to happen..I don’t have happy memory..My life is so dull and boring, even my hand went shopping alone..Can you imagine?Bosan giler..heh..

Anyway, I’ve read others memoir.. Some of it is more inspiring than other.. It helps you to put your life on track.. Make yourself differentiate the good from the bad.. So, in a way it was great.. But, to let people read about me, again, huh, they will kill themselves.. (I have) no achievement to be proud of.. No journey to share.. All I can think of right now is how great that my cousin is getting married and how lucky everybody else is.. It really stresses me out..Well, not the ”getting married part” ok.. That doesn’t affect me an inch..hhehe..

So, to anybody who love to write about your life and achievement, do inform me.. I really love and want to read it.. Who knows..?

 

 

Salam..beberapa minggu lepas negara dikejutkan dgn berita pemergian seorg seniman negara yang byk menyumbang kepada negara. Beliau ialah Zubir Ali..Beliau telah byk memberi tunjuk ajar kepada kami pelajar2 di Universiti Malaya..

Kenangan yang x bleh dilupakan..Beliau memang pandai menarik minat pelajar supaya berdebat dgn beliau..Thanks to him, i’ve got enough courage and confident to fulfill my dreams..klu x rasanya sampai bila2 pun aku ni cam katak bwh tempurung..

Al-Fatihah untuk allahyarham Zubir Ali..semoga beliau ditempatkan dikalangan org2 yang beriman..Amin..

 

 

 

Baru2 ni aku ada baca satu buku cerita yang agak menarikla..buku tu ditulis oleh melissa nathan..anyone interested blehla baca..citer dier simple and senang difahami..so anybody yg baru nak berjinak ngan buku english blehla cuba baca..tapi tebal skitla buku nih..jadi kena banyak bersabar dan tanamkan semangat nak abiskan juga baca..hahahhahah..

Dalam buku ni ada satu ayat tu yg buat aku rasa mcm bleh pakai jer..mmg bila fikir2 blk mcm betul pun ada..So secara ringkasnya dier ckp (using my own words) : ”hidup nih macam bendera..bila dah sampai kat atas dier kena mula balik dari bwh..samala macam manusia..mula2 masuk tadika..mula2 kita yg paling muda..kena buli..pastu 6 thn..jd senior kat situ..baru nak enjoy dah kena masuk sekolah rendah..jadi junior balik..kena buli..kena jadi org suruhan..pastu lama2 dpt masuk darjah enam..jadi senior..sronokla nak enjoy..nak buli org..tup tup dah kena masuk sekolah menengah..jadi junior blk..so kesimpulannya, hidup kita nih akan melalui perkara yang sama berulang2.. mcm bendera yang naik turun, naik turun tiang bendera..bila dah buruk bendera tu kena buang..macam kita jugak..bila sampai penghujungnya, ajal menjemput..

So what should we do? Just enjoy our life tp jgn lupa utk beramal seperti yg dituntut oleh Islam..Enjoy cara Islam x salah jgn ikut cara barat..Itu bukan cara kita..Salam..

 

 

Rasa2nya aku dah terjangkit satu penyakit yang agak aneh..ehehehhe..usually once a year..dah memang terbukti dah..aku dah terjangkit “Blog-ing fever”..aku dah buktikan sebab klu tgk blog aku nih sekali setahun baru update..Tak taula camner nak ubatkan..antibiotic xder jual untuk penyakit yg camni..Bila jumpa pakar diorg ckp aku kena selalu menulis so that penyakit idea tu keluar melalui jari2 aku and mengalir ke screen komp..pergh..dahsyat gak yer..dahla aku nih bukan pakar bahasa..

Skang nih aku kena rajin membaca and menulis supaya nanti nak exam and interview senang..kalau x, ckp pun ta..ta..ta.. jer.. gagap..ahahha..lagipun nak interview nanti mestilah nak kena banyak knowledge..kang org tanya pasal motosikal aku jawab pasal basikal kang hah sapa susah..aku jugak..dah tentu2lah bos2 tuh xnak amik aku keja..x pasal2 kna cop x reti bahasa..tp tula..payah nak belajar bahasa ni..akukan org putih..jgn bahasa melayu, bahasa omputih pun aku fail..ahahhaha..

Haila..skang nih aku dah apply beberapa kerja..hopefully abis belajar je aku terus dpt keja..amatlah seronoknya..doakanlah aku yer..dah betul2 bosan dah ni..janganla aku menganggur plak..x sanggup dah..lagipun aku ada skit rasa jelesla tgk member2 yg dah keja..sronok diorg ada duit sendiri..bleh beli keta, rumah..klu nak compared ngan aku huhuhu..nak beli magazine pun kena kira ckp duit ker x..sedih tau..papepun tu all my friend yg dah keja, DO YOUR BEST.. Yg baru start keja, WORK SMART and MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU..dan kepada yang baru nak apply keja GOOD LUCK..Jom doakan kejayaan semua.. Untuk yang masih belajar..ENJOY..perjalanan korg masih jauh..PEACE..

 

Haila..Bosannya hidup..Semenjak dua menjak nih aku banyak menghabiskan masa melepak kat rumah..Bosan tahap maksimum..Nak cari kerja pun payah sbb aku nih dah jadi ‘driver’ cum ‘baby sitter’ cum ’student’ x sudah.. huhuuhu..So skang nih kalau ada peluang nak berjalan memang aku x lepaskan..laju jer aku setuju..

Untuk membuktikan tahap kebosananku yang makin serius aku dah start beli novel b.m balik..perghh..malang sungguh nasib aku ni..Asyik beli buku yang bingung and hampeh..Tajuk jer grand..Jalan citer blerghhh..Boleh plak satu buku tu citer pasal orang gila + alien dari planet mana ntah + bla bla bla.. Bodoh giler siot buku tuh..Aku sempat baca dua pages depan and last page before buku tu aku campak ke dinding..”STUPID..STUPID..IDIOT..IDIOT..” Menghabiskan duit aku jer.. 

Anyway, last Friday the 13th, February, me and my friends a.k.a shue and jimmy pegi jalan2 kat genting..best sgt..luckily kitorg cepat dalam 5 minutes je kot coz polis nak tutup jalan untuk pertandingan motor polis (Jimmy yang cakap tp sebenarnya ada Le Tour De Langkawi..Tertipu aku..hehhehe)..Kitorang naik cable car..Ngeri siot..

Biasala dalam ke’ngeri’an tuh kitorang sempat gakla posing..first time naik memangla camtu..kampung skit..ahaks..Lama gakla kitorg jalan2 kat sana.. Sempat gak main bowling seround..kalau compared ngan mid best lagi bowling kat mid..And seperti biasa aku dapat markah paling teruk, Shu second and Jimmy yang terror skali.. 

Dah puas main bowling kitorang pegi jalan2, amik2 gambo, and melompat2 (Shu ngan Jimmy jer..aku sopan skit..ahaks..) Memang pecah perutla gelak..sampai orang yang lalu lalang pun tumpang gelak skali..Biasala..amik gambo guna hp jer..so payahla nak snap gambo tgh melompat..beriala mengira “1,2,3, lompat”..Tapi yang pasti memang enjoy sgt..mengalir keluar semua tensen den..

 

Alhamdulillah,siap jugak akhirnya tesis ni..sepanjang aku nak menyiapkan tesis nih banyak kali gakla aku menyerah kalah..so bila aku rasa cam nak kecewa jer aku akan try cari motivational story supaya dptla aku nak naikkan semngat aku nikan..along the journey, i found this interesting story..aku memang rasa terharu giler..citer ni gakla yang terus memberi semangat kat aku..hopefully you guys yang baca pun akan dapat manfaat dier jugak.

Adrift
  by: Adam Khan

In 1982 Steven Callahan was crossing the Atlantic alone in his sailboat when it struck something and sank. He was out of the shipping lanes and floating in a life raft, alone. His supplies were few. His chances were small. Yet when three fishermen found him seventy-six days later (the longest anyone has survived a shipwreck on a life raft alone), he was alive — much skinnier than he was when he started, but alive.

His account of how he survived is fascinating. His ingenuity — how he managed to catch fish, how he fixed his solar still (evaporates sea water to make fresh) — is very interesting.

But the thing that caught my eye was how he managed to keep himself going when all hope seemed lost, when there seemed no point in continuing the struggle, when he was suffering greatly, when his life raft was punctured and after more than a week struggling with his weak body to fix it, it was still leaking air and wearing him out to keep pumping it up. He was starved. He was desperately dehydrated. He was thoroughly exhausted. Giving up would have seemed the only sane option.

When people survive these kinds of circumstances, they do something with their minds that gives them the courage to keep going. Many people in similarly desperate circumstances give in or go mad. Something the survivors do with their thoughts helps them find the guts to carry on in spite of overwhelming odds.

"I tell myself I can handle it," wrote Callahan in his narrative. "Compared to what others have been through, I’m fortunate. I tell myself these things over and over, building up fortitude…."

I wrote that down after I read it. It struck me as something important. And I’ve told myself the same thing when my own goals seemed far off or when my problems seemed too overwhelming. And every time I’ve said it, I have always come back to my senses.

The truth is, our circumstances are only bad compared to something better. But others have been through much worse. I’ve read enough history to know you and I are lucky to be where we are, when we are, no matter how bad it seems to us compared to our fantasies. It’s a sane thought and worth thinking.

So here, coming to us from the extreme edge of survival, are words that can give us strength. Whatever you’re going through, tell yourself you can handle it. Compared to what others have been through, you’re fortunate. Tell this to yourself over and over, and it will help you get through the rough spots with a little more fortitude.

Everytime i have free time,i love to read someone else’s blog..well just to read what they wrote, how they express their feelings and all.. one day i came across this blog and in it this person trash talk and complain about his mother..how much he hates it when he have to take care of his mother..HUHHH!!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS PERSON??

i know it is your right to write whatever you want..but you are talking about your mother..who gave birth to you..who feed you..who take care of YOU when you are sick..but now when it’s your turn to take care of her you said all this dreadful thing about her.. oohh..ungrateful son..why don’t you just jump of the cliff?it is much better than you published all those thing to the world on how stupid you are..

o.k..i know i got carried away..i’m sorry for what i said..but huh..shame on you..stupid guy..do you think your mom wanted to be a burden to you..she will try her best to take care of herself if she can..she is 89 for crying out loud..let her enjoy her life..not dreading it..i just hope you change your attitudes before it’s to late..

Well, this is another story of my life..one of my guy friend  meluahkan perasaan risau dier coz there is this one girl who is "crazy" and x bleh diselamatkan lagi yg kept on ganggu dier..he told me that this girl has send email yg sgt membahayakan kesihatan..AHAKS..agak sensored skitla..hmm..apa nak jadila bebdk zaman skang..

The problem is, he said that this girl is actually one of my friend yg rapat gakla..but, i can’t imagined any friends of mine will act disgracefully..so i list all my closed friends name( sorry shu, mawar, nurul, fiza, diane, ita, ina, sarah and sapa lagi ha?..) but he said not one of them is the girl that i’m looking for..of coursela a few names yg ada tu dier x kenal pun..hahaha..dier ckp klu tgk girl ni mesti x percaya itu dier..sbb kat luar nampak cam baik..hmmm..sapala agaknya pompuan tuh..

yg pastinya dier blaja satu tempat ngan kitorg and satu jabatan..curious gak aku nih..nak sgt tau sapa budak tuh sbb dier dah jatuhkan nama baik sorg pompuan..mcm org yg x bermaruah..terhegeh2 kat laki..bak kata pepatah macam perigi cari timba..

member aku ni kata girl nih penah janji kat dier yg if he didn’t sms or email her in 1 week she will stop bothering him..but now dah lebih seminggu and this girl x stop2 gak..klu aku jadi member aku ni pun aku reject pompuan nih..penipu besar..hahahaa..jahatnya aku nih mengata org..tp aku memang kalau bleh nak kutuk pompuan nih tujuh keturunan sebab menjatuhkan maruah pompuan..nasib baikla aku x tau sapa dier..so kepada sesapa yang berkenaan tuh paham2 jerla yer..aku kutuk ko nih..hehehe..x nak aku ada kwn cam nih..

aku tgh menanti ngan sabar nih..member aku nih ckp klu pompuan tuh still kacau and sms/email dier, dier akan sebarkan semua email yg pompuan nih penah hantar kat die..klu dah antar email tuh dah tentu2la ada email address so x blehla kata dier menipu or sengaja buat citer..hmmm..member aku ckp ada dlm satu email yg pompuan tu antar kat dier pompuan tu tulis yg aku hanya percaya ckp dier jer..ckp org lain semua aku x percaya.. eh apa ingat aku nih x reti nak menilai org ker?nak jer aku luku2 kepala minah nih..

wahai saudaraku..kasitaula sapa nama pompuan nih..aku nak tau sgt2 nih..senang aku nak buat perhitungan ngan dier..cheewah..cam pendekar plak..anyway kepada semua pompuan, JAGALAH MARUAH ANDA..Jual mahalla skit..baru org nak..tp klu dah org xnak tuh x pyhla terhegeh2..macam org bodoh jer..x paham bahasa..(MARAH NI!!)..

p/s : hah teringat lagi duorang..sorry kak watie and kak laili.. hehehe..termasuk senarai plak..

lagu nih meriah betul..seronok aku dengar lagu dier..hopefully org lain yang dengar pun bleh tumpang meriah sekali..eheheh

wow..x sangka sungguh..cepat betul masa berlalu..rasa mcm baru jer start pose..tup tup.. dah nak dua minggu kita beraya..pergh..x puas betul rasanya berpuasa tahun ni..agaknya sbb tula aku rasa raya tahun nih x meriah..+ x buat baju raya pun thn nih..

hmm.. ader x sesapa yg pernah kena "tindih hantu".. ini kata org tua la..tp scientifically sbnrnya bdn + otak kita terlampau penat sbb tula jadi camtuh..Kenapa aku tanya? sbb nak citerla nih..A few days ago, thursday to be exact, my uncle tumpang tido at my house..he is 60++ and he travels a lot..

On that particular day he actually went to work at 7.30-4.30 and he travelled back to kl right after..he arrived at my house around 2 am..ohh..lupa nak kasitau..dia keja kat terengganu..so just imagined how tired he is..

so, nak jadi citer dier terlelap atas kerusi..tetiba he started screaming his head off..ngerila everybody yg menengoknyer.. lepas dia stop jerit terus dier duduk..once again dier terlelap..and sekali lagi dier jerit..tula kisahnya..HAHAHAHAa..my mom ckp mesti sbb dier penat..

and i think maybe he just imagined things since my house betul2 depan kubur..wallahuallam..what ever it is i hope he will come and tido kat sini lagi.."lupakan yang lain- iklan daia"..

p/s : actually aku xder pun kat rumah masa kejadian..my sister and uncle yg citer kat aku..klu tipu diorg tu maka tipula aku..hahahhaha..